A few short years ago, I was abruptly awakened in the middle of the night to the news of an accident. After two sleepless weeks of beige walls, cold hospital rooms, continuous monitor beeping and ultimate incomprehension, I lost my beautiful mother.
Naturally, what followed was a time of confusion and loss. A physical loss accompanied by a loss of self. I lost a part of my own identity when she was no longer in my life. The same things I was doing before she died simply didn’t work anymore. I struggled to find happiness in anything. My mind was constantly all over the place. I only went through the motions. I was stuck.
The grief became so consuming that I felt that I had to get away from everything that reminded me of her.
So I began to travel. I went to cities that held no traces of memories. I hiked through forests and climbed mountains to clear my head.
It was through these experiences that I discovered that nature and travel could be healing. I felt calmer by the ocean and stronger next to the mountains. Running through forest trails sharpened my focus. The time spent en-route to a destination allowed time to reflect. New cities reinstilled a sense of wonder within me.
Eventually I was able to face and work through the grief, to invite the sadness to sit at my table as if it were the noblest of dinner guests. I stopped going through the motions and I started noticing again. I noticed the first sip of good coffee, or the way the light shone so beautifully through a window – and when I laughed, I really laughed.
Only then did I realize how I want to live my life from that point forward.
My hope is to help people get outside their pain in order to live a healthier and happier life. This website is for those who are stuck, those who are grieving, those who are not happy with where they are, those who need a change in their lives.
And this can only be accomplished with change. Change is outside – It may be outside your front door. It may be outside your comfort zone. It may be outside your country. It may be outside your own mind, but regardless, it is likely to be “outside”.
Whatever it may be, I hope you can find your “outside” through my blog.
Malinda Meadows is an Ohio native who was letting grief blanket her life.
She found healing through traveling and nature. She discovered changes of location led to changes in her mindset. It helped her process grief and forge a new path with greater optimism and happiness. Realizing the benefit of deliberate change, she now leads a more balanced and mindful life inspired by simple changes.
She blogs regularly at malindainthesnow.com to help others find change, however small, outside their box in order to live a happier, healthier life.